i'm always surprised when i go public hopping and have a blast. i ran into someone who happened to have mutuals which is always funny. talked about old fun video games and got to nerd out about music and programming for hours. i'll probably hop on a bit more regularly when time allows for it, i think it's been helping me just be more confident on talking in groups and knowing how to keep a conversation going. on other news, i finally have a couple verses / intro sections i've been kind of happy with. now it's just laying out the lyrics and finishing something original. it's definitely not anything great but i'm happy that i'm getting better at composition and ableton. moving next week so it'll be slowed down just a little bit, hoping that i can get everything realistically moved in about a day or two anyway byebye goodnight

it's been 3 months since getting my promotion to a senior role and the imposter syndrome is crazy. it feels terrifying to have people who have been on a team for years ask me questions and I'm just supposed to be confident about my answers. oh well, i've made it 4 years at the company so it must be working. also, touring a new place tomorrow afternoon, they want to bump my rent by 350/m and that's not something i'm willing to eat. But! i'm hoping tomorrow has some good outcomes. in better news, i'm getting more comfortable with ableton. forcing myself to use it for more electronic stuff has been good to getting me used to more of the tools. also hitting a really big digicore / jr mood has been helpful with inspiration. anyway short update :3c

teehee the drunk blog post of the year ༼ つ ◕_◕ ༽つ. it's that time of year where there are birthday's left and right. i don't know when it's appropriate to say happy birthday to people who have estranged themselves from my life even though i think it'd be a nice gesture. there are a bunch of people i care about but i'm afraid of coming off as weird. idk. maybe one day i'll figure out that boundry. anyway, i've been warming up to the idea of dating but i'm still very much hesitant given how i feel about my work life balance, and balancing my interests with prioritizing the other person. idk maybe after i finish moving i'll be in a better headspace to think about that stuff.
anyway if you haven't listened to GABUISLOST's new album Bite Me, i can highly recommend. even with all the vore references x3. weird music update for my july playlist, it's been pretty sparse. only 7 tracks (27ish minutes) which has been extremely weird. i need to start finding new music again. been pretty quiet lately. anyway goooood nightttt no more weird rambles.

finally started getting back into creative hobbies. have consistently been able to do scales in 4ths and 6ths around 130 bpm eighth notes. started retexturing a few things on substance painter to be more in line with that i want, and actually trying to optimize for rave worlds outside of my plushie. also finished a handful of lyrics for 4 songs. nothing set in stone for composition outside of the lyrics though, some drafts of things in ableton but i dont like much except the main motif on pretty much all of it. been kind of hard to isolate what i dont like about it but it's whatevs ヽ(´ー｀)┌

first entry.

racc decided to build a home page. this is that home page.

still figuring out what this space will be. music i've been listening to, projects i'm building and stuff i don't want on my socials

mostly harmless. occasionally feral.